Small steps. The last couple days have been about the small steps. Small steps may not seem like much, but they will make up the majority of my journey.
Today I removed one of my final masks. I shaved off the majority of my remaining body hair, including my facial hair. I’ve kept some form of facial hair for over a decade. It was a useful mask, and help me both hide, and was a reminder of how to act when I would start to let myself be my true self in public. But the other side is, now I’m on my way to becoming myself outside as well as inside.
I caught a look at myself in the mirror after I finished and I actually looked feminine to me. I never had rugged features, and I used to hate it, but now I’m so very grateful. That I could put on some make up now and with the right clothes probably not get too many weird looks makes me hopeful. I may have the wrong body, but I’m not beyond the right one, and my face will not be my biggest hurdle.
I made an official email address for my real name. Having an email address based off your name is a good idea for official stuff, but if you ever have to change your name, it gets complicated.
In the near future I will be doing a few posts on the people who have been major influences in my life. My ex, who I will call Ann, will be the first. Ann is still a major part of my life, and even though we are not together anymore, we’re still very close. She’s also promised to both help me with make up, a skill I will desperately need to learn, as well as start working out with me, because I very much want to lose weight.
I will probably not be doing posts every single day, but I will try to be consistent. I do have a lot to say, but I don’t want to burn out, and I hope to keep this going for a long time. Writing about these things has been a wonderful help, as have knowing people are reading. Thank you all.